My Firework?

Ever listen to a song and not really hear it? That is what I have done with Katy Perry's Firework for quite a while, pretending to sing the lyrics, but not REALLY knowing them. While flipping through music videos I saw this one and since I recognized the song played it.....and was surprised and personally touched by the song. If you haven't seen it yet check out the video, trust me it is worth it.

I have a firework inside? I have something special that makes me WORTH doing those things I want to do? Yeah I do, right? It is difficult to believe since I haven't believed I could be worth much, other than a dose of humor and a great self help coach for anyone but me, for a very long time. Me have value? Me have a purpose? Me? Really?

I don't live my life based on the latest tabloids and superstar fads, but this video hit me. It made me stop and think, again. It made me face yet again my greatest struggle- finding who I am and what I am worth. I recently read, and agree, that no diet, exercise, pill or surgery will ever do much good until I believe in the person I am doing it for, until I believe I am worth doing good things for.

A firework in me? My own personal spark that will touch others lives? Me? Do I have that? Yeah I do. YEAH I DO!!! Do I completely believe that? No, not yet...but I will. I WILL! One positive step after another I will uncover my worth, or rather uncover my eyes until I can see me for who I am. And this is my first positive step...

What do I like about me?

• I have pretty eyes.
• I have a good sense of humor.
• I am good at helping others. 
• I can dance. 

Ok. It is more difficult to come up with positives, but I will keep uncovering them, you'll see.