How many times have I said that? I don't even know. Lots would summarize it well enough.
Trying to exercise more.
Trying to drink more water.
Trying to eat better.
Trying to eat less.
Trying. Trying. Trying!
One thing I could win gold medals in is TRYING!
But am I really trying? Well, yes actually. It dawned on me today that I do a lot of trying, but what I need to be doing IS doing!
Or in the wise words of Yoda...
Or in the wise words of Yoda...
Here it is the end of December 2013, new years eve is TOMORROW, and where exactly am I?
Well, honestly, not a whole lot further along than I was at the same time last year. Yes, yes, there have been improvements, but they were a lot of trying....and THAT is what I want to focus on.
This year, this moment, right now, it is TIME to focus on not trying, but DOING!
I have said it before and I say it again. I have the knowledge. I have the experiences. And I definitely have my body telling me what it does and does not want...so why do I still simply try rather than do?
Well try is safe. It is effort without commitment. It is improvement without change. It is going forward without going so far that I can't run back and hide behind my oreos in my recliner....I mean I did try right?
With try there is allowance for failure, almost an expectation. With try there are allowances for excuses and justifications.
But with do, there is success or....nothing.
This sounds....like a bad thing, but it isn't.
Life is designed to be lived, not to try and live.
We don't try to breath...we breath.
We don't try to eat...we eat.
We don't try to go.....we go.
Or we don't...at all.
To try is that effort we put into actually getting to the DOING part. Think about it.
I am going to try to go....then you go or don't.
I am going to try to eat....then you eat or you don't. You may not eat much but you are DOING the eating.
In my life of roller coaster weight the trying have been the diets. Diets are me trying to BE healthy.
It is time for me to stop trying and just BE...be healthy...or don't.
By doing I will:
Eat well.
Stay well hydrated.
Move more.
Listen to my body.
That's it. Nothing more. I will be living what I have been trying to do all along.
Will I live it everyday? Nope.
There will be days where I will choose to do not in the same way I do not do my laundry, wake up on time or buy a coffee.
The key is...I will be LIVING by choice these things I have been needing all along. And as something I am living they will be a part of me, part of my life, part of my routine and not mere things I try to make happen picking them up and dumping them off at my whim.
It will not be easy, but it is time.
It is time to live and not try to live.
