My sister and I have been working hard at getting this diet thing under control. Life has been a roller coaster that at times feels more like hanging on for dear life rather than riding the ride and with the ups and downs in life so has gone the diet....up and down. The other day we looked at each other and knew "Enough is enough!" We have not just the chance but the ability to take the controls of our life and direct it where we want to be....to ride the ride and not just hang on. And so we are coaching each other, taking turns wearing the boot and providing the boot a landing zone.
And truth be told the help is in the little stuff. Texts of encouragement. Texts of butt kicking. A request for a recipe idea. And a rubber band. Yes a rubber band. My sister and I are each decorated with a brand new piece of jewelry...a simple bracelet of rubber. This little guy not only gives me something to fidget with all day long, but is a quick and firm reminder to stay on track. Yep! When a negative food thought creeps in or an unnecessary craving tries to take over....SNAP!!!!! Some days I feel like a snap-a-holic, but it IS helping! Day by day and snap by snap I am remembering to make diet conscious decisions and keeping control of my cravings and learning to recognize the what and why's I want what I want. And if ever I seem to be forgetting to snap out of it my children and sister love to help me!
Oooh....look....fresh-baked coo....SNAP!
Maybe just a little ric....SNAP!
Today I just don't wan...SNAP!
Oh no worries I get to have my fun with snapping people too! (Right sis?)
It is a little bit of a fashion sacrifice, but definitely worth it, and maybe I'll start a new trend!
Fashionable bracelet a la rubber anyone?
Monday, September 12, 2011
Monday, September 5, 2011
Along for the ride
Today was a wonderful, fun day at the fair with my sister, a friend and my kids! I watched and cheered as my kids and their "aunties" went on ride after ride, amazed and surprised at how well my kids did on such big rides! And, of course, I was queen of the camera, enjoying catching every moment I could......but not experiencing it.
So why, as a bystander, does this day go down as a good day? Because even though it was one simple ride, the big and beautiful Ferris Wheel, I got to climb inside and ride it. True, I was terrified all the way through the line I would be turned away too big to ride, or I wouldn't be able to squeeze my body onto the ride or worst of all I would break the whole frickin' thing! However, I made it on and LOVED the whole ride.
I enjoyed the view and the fun, but most of all I enjoyed how happy my kids were to have me on a ride with them! That felt AMAZING! Now that is a feeling of SUCCESS. Yes on a diet numbers go down, clothes get sassier, but my kids joy so far has been the greatest accomplishment and was a strong reminder that I have a big goal to reach....DISNEYLAND rides and all! Yes my little ones mama can do it!
So why, as a bystander, does this day go down as a good day? Because even though it was one simple ride, the big and beautiful Ferris Wheel, I got to climb inside and ride it. True, I was terrified all the way through the line I would be turned away too big to ride, or I wouldn't be able to squeeze my body onto the ride or worst of all I would break the whole frickin' thing! However, I made it on and LOVED the whole ride.
I enjoyed the view and the fun, but most of all I enjoyed how happy my kids were to have me on a ride with them! That felt AMAZING! Now that is a feeling of SUCCESS. Yes on a diet numbers go down, clothes get sassier, but my kids joy so far has been the greatest accomplishment and was a strong reminder that I have a big goal to reach....DISNEYLAND rides and all! Yes my little ones mama can do it!
Friday, September 2, 2011
Rainbows and Sparkles
OMG....So the diet program I am participating in has an online support group. We were told that we can go there for encouragement and advice, recipes, etc. So I go check it out and my reaction is a sudden burning sensation in my throat and a nauseated roll in my stomach. I can not believe what I am reading.
"It is just the greatest diet ever!"
"Everything tastes SOOOOO GOOOD!"
"This is so easy, I just can't believe it!!"
On and on and on the sap poured, from every line, every word, every syllable. Yuck!
I stared at my screen in confusion and frustration. All these people were farting skittles while dancing on sun streaked clouds under the rainbow of joy and happiness. Umm where were the people that felt like me? Like crap and were hungry and found the food tolerable but missed real food? Where were the people who stared at a forbidden treat and actually fought with themselves to the point of lunacy about whether to just take a bite? Where were the people that felt one snapped moment away from ripping the happy smile off the face of the next person who said "It is easy you can do it! Who needs food to have fun?" and shoving it up there skittle popping portal?
There aren't any happy go lucky rainbows in my neck of the woods. I'm not gonna lie, a diet isn't easy. Change isn't easy. I know I have new habits to make and old habits to break, but if I am expected to be happy Joe sunshine the whole freakin' time you have got to be kidding me. Is the weight loss and the rewards of weight loss worth pushing through? Yes. But it is pushing. Pushing and falling and getting up and trying again and learning....a freakin' struggle the whole way up (or down I guess.)
My support group comment "This is real life. You have to live this diet to get your life back. It is tough, a real struggle some days, but it is worth it. Push through the tough because YOU are worth it." No rainbows no sparkles no skittles.
"It is just the greatest diet ever!"
"Everything tastes SOOOOO GOOOD!"
"This is so easy, I just can't believe it!!"
On and on and on the sap poured, from every line, every word, every syllable. Yuck!
I stared at my screen in confusion and frustration. All these people were farting skittles while dancing on sun streaked clouds under the rainbow of joy and happiness. Umm where were the people that felt like me? Like crap and were hungry and found the food tolerable but missed real food? Where were the people who stared at a forbidden treat and actually fought with themselves to the point of lunacy about whether to just take a bite? Where were the people that felt one snapped moment away from ripping the happy smile off the face of the next person who said "It is easy you can do it! Who needs food to have fun?" and shoving it up there skittle popping portal?
There aren't any happy go lucky rainbows in my neck of the woods. I'm not gonna lie, a diet isn't easy. Change isn't easy. I know I have new habits to make and old habits to break, but if I am expected to be happy Joe sunshine the whole freakin' time you have got to be kidding me. Is the weight loss and the rewards of weight loss worth pushing through? Yes. But it is pushing. Pushing and falling and getting up and trying again and learning....a freakin' struggle the whole way up (or down I guess.)
My support group comment "This is real life. You have to live this diet to get your life back. It is tough, a real struggle some days, but it is worth it. Push through the tough because YOU are worth it." No rainbows no sparkles no skittles.
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